It has been 38 days since I arrived back from Czech Republic.
How did I feel when I came back? I was a bit in a shock. Hearing Estonian again was weird and strange at first, to be honest. I had gotten used to the fact that the person who I speak directly with understands me but not others, not people around me. It took me about a week to retrain myself.
Another thing that was a big, big shocker was that at the same night I arrived home, my friends came, knocked on my door and invited me to a party. They surprised me. Actually they wanted to surprise me at the bus terminal but I told them the wrong time, by accident. And there my friends were, standing in front of my house and hugging me. And there I was, standing in front of my house, having a heart attack.
How do I feel about that trip now? Was it worth not going to school for three months? At first I have to tell you, yes I really do call those three months a one big trip. And was it all worth the big work I have to do right now? Well, to be honest, I´m not that sure about that... I mean I enjoyed it, I got new experiences, some new friends, and overall it was one awesome trip. I just haven´t thought it through. Maybe it´s not something to think about that much?
I think about those three months every day. Not a single day goes by when I haven´t thought about what I did there or who I met and so on. I just realized I have to change my playlist, there are only the songs I downloaded in CR and it makes me kind of sentimental. This sentence just made me feel old...
Talking about age - I feel older now. Honestly. After those three months I feel I have grown. Not in height, not in weight but I feel quite often that I´m 23 or 25 or so. It´s strange, it´s something new.
I remember the first day I woke up in my own bed in my own room after that trip, I felt I was in heaven and I told everybody that that´s it, I´m not going anywhere anymore, I´m going to live right here with my family for the rest of my life. I also remember that the fact that in 9 months I have to go to school to another bigger town kind of scared me. But now, just few days ago, I realized that I want to go to study abroad. In Ireland for example. And then I thought that I´ll study in Pärnu at first but then I´ll do my practice in Ireland. Sounds freaking freaking great, awesome and all those good words for me.
The last time I met my very best friend and told her about my big future plans, she said that I should really start to write a blog. Start writing, find my niche and then everything will just go as I have dreamed.
In conclusion of all this long long text I just want to say that I would never have started dreaming that big and would never be as persevering as I am right now without this big trip. I am being totally honest right now. So thank you all again so so much whoever helped me with going there, being there, coming back here.
And here are two songs that I absolutely love at the moment:
I hope you all enjoy your life as much as possible :)
LoveLove,
KidKadi
PS! I honestly miss learning Czech language. I should start learning it by myself with a little help from the big and great Internet. One day I will.
PSS! The meaning of this post here isn´t to talk about my trip forever and ever. I just thought that some people might be interested in how it has been and what I think about it now and so on.
